If anyone out there has no idea who God is, who Jesus is, or what it means to be born again or saved OR wonders how they could receive salvation? There's a prayer below that you can read and recite, and hopefully ask Jesus into your life. No pressure.

"Jesus, I'm a sinner and I need your forgiveness. I know that you died for me and rose again 3 days later. I ask that you come into my life and change me. Help me to be that person you have called me to be. Walk with me daily and help me to make the right decisions. In your name I pray, amen."

long lost letter.

The other day I was going through some stuff and stumbled across a letter I wrote from a year ago. It's addressed to my future son/daughter. It was cute reading it again, and a reminder of how much I've longed to be a mother. Are women naturally made to have that "motherly instinct"?

Well anyway, here is the letter I found:

June 16, 2011

Little girl, or little boy

 You're not even born, yet you're all I think about. I wonder who you will take after? What color will your eyes be? Mommy and daddy aren't ready for you yet, but just know you are loved. You're talked about all the time! You have no idea how special you are, or how awesome it will be to hold you and raise you up to be a child of God. 

I dream about you. I can't wait to meet you, baby.

Love,

Mommy

I'm so eager to take a test next month. I have no idea how long I'm supposed to wait? I always get so anxious, only to find out I'm not even pregnant. 


A lot of people ask me, "So..are you trying to get pregnant??"


How does one answer this question? I don't really want to say 'yes' or 'no'. I just feel like I'm setting myself up for failure in trying to conceive. When it happens, it happens right? 


I will for sure let the whole world know.

little thing.

i love you, baby girl.

I still remember the day you were born. I was so anxious to meet you, but I had to work that day. And you were far away. But I came to see you the next day and you were perfect! I held you and said a little prayer over you, that God would protect you.

I just know you're going to be president someday.

Love,

Auntie Lyn Lyn

photo credit: karissa burtch

the proud moments

My wonderful husband graduated college

I am so proud of his accomplishments! He worked so so hard for this, and it was not an easy task for him. Why, you ask? Well, he's a married man. He's a church-goer. He has a job. He has a crappy car(lol). And he still has other manly responsibilities to take care of around the house.

Did I mention he is a married man? Not that I'm such a huge deal, but we've been married for 3 and a half years. Those are like, the most crucial years of marriage! Sometimes I'd be so sick for his attention I would sit next to him while he studied and did his homework. It stressed him out knowing he didn't have time to spend time with me. So, I sat with him. Weird, I know, but I really like this guy.

Then there is church. We have church related things about 6 times a week. He is also in ministry, which means he has a lot of responsibilities to take care of. It can be stressful, because he drives people home, sometimes across town, which can cost a lot of money on gas and also take more time away from me. I know, I'm so selfish.

Then there is work. He has a regular, full time job. 40 hours a week. Sometimes he is on call and has to fix issues for his customers early in the morning, like around 3 or 4 in the morning. Let's just say I could never do that.

And then there's our famous Kia Sephia. Drives like a champ for the most part but lately it's been acting like it wants to die. Husband doesn't know anything about cars. But what do you expect for $500 ? No, it really has been a blessing. It's taken us from Indiana to Arizona and back without any trouble. I'd say we're very fortunate.

As for his "manly" duties around the house. Haha. Even taking the trash out or changing light bulbs can suck when you've already had a stressful week. ;)




So stoked. Husband is done w/ school

::sigh:: Why me?

Today my car broke down. My phone doesn't work very well either. I'm out of laundry detergent. And I'm still wondering how I'm going to tow my car back home with no towing money in the bank?

The little disruptions in life can really spoil your mood. Not that my mood was all that great from the start. I've had these achy pains in my stomach all day. Still hoping it's implantation cramps but I'm guessing it's probably not. My sister thinks I'm just ovulating. Is this too much information? Well, I guess if you're interested in reading this, you might as well know that I will write what is on my mind. I'm tired of editing my life to suit others. THIS IS MY BLOG.

Now I need to wait for my husband to come home and baby me.

Hellllo?! Is anyone in there??

Oh, little cramps I feel. I just ask, please please please! Be those infamous 'implantation' cramps women feel when they're expecting! Please stop being stubborn and just form already. I don't care if you're a boy or girl. As long as you're healthy and happy.

So I wonder, are you in there?

You're not just an embryo, or a fetus. You're my baby.

And one day you'll make a difference in this world.